TRANSGENDER 2Q-YEAR-OLD 5
Kenzie Randall-Beale spent years feeling self-conscious as a girl but now heâ€™s had surgery to become a man he feels super sexy
Posing in festive red boxers and showing off his muscular chest, youâ€™d never guess Kenzie Randall-Beale was born a girl called Esme – and had been so unhappy with his gender heâ€™d tried to take his own life.
Kenzie, 20, was diagnosed with gender dysphoria aged 17 and went on to have hormone treatment and a mastectomy. And, in October this year, he completed his transformation with gender reassignment surgery to create a penis.
Kenzie, from Bude, Cornwall, says: â€œIâ€™m so pleased Iâ€™ve finally got a willy – itâ€™s the best Christmas present ever! I was always unhappy as a girl – I started cutting myself to cope.
â€œAt 18, I started hormone treatment, followed by a mastectomy. But the day I found out I was getting a penis,
I knew Iâ€™d finally be happy. My transformation has been tough on my family. But theyâ€™ve been amazing – weâ€™re closer than ever.â€ Single Kenzie – who lives with mum Sarah, 43, dad Chris, 66, and siblings Ellory, 18, Angel, seven, and Autumn, five, and has another brother, Chris, 23 – first felt unhappy aged six.
He explains: â€œI got a Barbie for Christmas and hated it. Girlsâ€™ things made me feel uncomfortable. By the age of 10, I knew I wanted to be a boy.
I cried when I told Mum, but she promised to stand by me. Amazingly, Dad said heâ€™d always known. Even my brothers were understanding.â€
But Esmeâ€™s GP told the family she couldnâ€™t be helped until she turned 16.
Kenzie says: â€œWe were told the legal age for referrals to a gender clinic was 16, but Iâ€™ve since discovered you can be a lot younger. When my periods started at 11, I was so unhappy I started cutting my arms and legs with razor blades.
Mum begged me to stop, but I wanted to punish myself for being born in the wrong body.â€ Esme began living as a boy full-time aged 15 and asked everyone to call him Kenzie -because McKenzie clothing was his favourite brand. He recalls:
â€œI started strapping my C-cup chest down with bandages and had my hair cut.â€
But Kenzieâ€™s transformation wasnâ€™t accepted by everyone.
Kenzie – who always fancied girls – says: â€œSchool friends bullied me and I was called a â€˜lesbian.â€™ And I was beaten up by a local gang for being different.â€ Aged 16, Kenzie was referred to a gender clinic for children and, 18 months later, was diagnosed with gender dysphoria [a condition where a person feels distress because of their biological sex]. Kenzie explains: â€œAt 18, I had testosterone injections to develop Kenzie as Esme a9ed 11 years old my body hair and make my Adamâ€™s apple grow. It stopped my periods too. But it wasnâ€™t enough. While I was on the NHS waiting list for a mastectomy and gender reassignment surgery, I tried to kill myself because the wait for treatment was agonising. â€œIn February 2014, I took 36 painkillers with a bottle of vodka. Mum found me and called an ambulance.
I was violently sick at hospital and stayed in overnight. Thankfully, I was OK, but it was very upsetting for Mum.â€
In April 2014, Kenzie had a mastectomy – then was told heâ€™d be having gender reassignment surgery this year. He says: â€œHaving my breasts removed was a huge relief. But when I found out I Heâ€™s now living 1 1 as a man and has never been , happier was getting a penis, I was really emotional. It was the final step to becoming a man. Iâ€™d been seeing a girl for a year and she was pleased for me.â€ FINALLY HAPPY
In October this year, Kenzie had the surgery at a London hospital. He says: â€œI had skin grafts from my arm to create a penis. It took eight hours and, when I came round, I was in lots of pain, I was wearing a bandage for eight weeks and itâ€™s still healing now, but itâ€™s worth it – my willy looks so good! It took a while to get used to, but I feel so happy. Iâ€™ve
Kenzie says having male genitals has given him confidence got a silicone ball in my groin to create a testicle and Iâ€™ll have a second one soon, followed by a pump fitted in my penis to help me get an erection so I can have sex” Hairdresser Kenzie adds:
â€œI recently split up with my girlfriend, but now Iâ€™ve got male genitals I feel more confident.â€ Kenzie, whoâ€™ll have his womb removed next year, adds: â€œIâ€™d like kids one day and my brother, Ellory, has offered to be a sperm donor, which would be amazing.
â€œI spent so many years feeling unhappy with my body, now I can finally start enjoying life. My willy is definitely the best Christmas present ever!â€
I dressed Esme in pink dresses and adored having a daughter. â€œBut at 18 months she started having tantrums and only wanted to play with boys’ toys.
I thought it was a phase, but gradually realised there was more to it.
â€œAged 10, she came to me, trembling with fear, and said she wanted to be a boy. I held her and told her I already knew. Watching Kenzie struggle
through his teen years was heartbreaking – I constantly wished I could have waved a magic wand to give him what he wanted.
â€œAnd although I was happy when he had gender reassignment surgery, saying goodbye to Esme for good was so tough. But I know it’s for the best. I’ve since gone on to have two daughters, which has helped with losing Esme.
â€œKenzie is now my gorgeous son and I’m so proud – I couldn’t be happier for him.â€