There's no feeling like holding your newborn for the first time. But there's another side to childbirth that people often don't talk about – the trauma that can cast a shadow for years to come. My husband Steve and I were thrilled to learn I was pregnant three months after our wedding. Our baby was due on 15 December 2007, Short men haircut but it wasn't until Christmas Day that I felt the first contractions.
After 48 hours and an emergency caesarean, my baby was born.
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?It's a boy, ' Steve grinned. As I held little Joseph, I felt nothing but love.
But that night, once everyone had left, the midwife peered under the blanket covering my stomach and looked horrified. I was haemorrhaging – and hadn't even realised. Blood was soaking the sheets.
‹“We're going to have to take you to theatre, ' the consultant said, putting me under general anaesthetic. Short men haircut When I came round, I had a ventilator over my mouth ‹“You almost died, ' my sister Laura said. ?But you're safe now. But I felt far from safe.
I'd pictured myself cuddling my baby, not battling for my life in intensive care. Short men haircut Back home, a dark shadow hung over me and I was plagued with flashbacks from the birth. Constantly anxious, I could barely leave Joseph asleep in his cot without thinking something terrible would happen to him.
Within weeks, my anxiety turned into panic attacks.